You could be here

We could still be talking

My side is always open

But you are closed off

I have wondered if I should do the same

Am I wasting my time waiting on you?

All the leaves have fallen

It is cold and getting colder

Snow will soon be here

Rain is here now

Grey is the color

People are staying inside

They think they are safe

Throw my hands up in frustration and I start to cry

Getting mad at everyone can’t figure out why

Screaming into nothing always hurting

Can’t trust anyone always being rejected

How can I keep going always feeling like this

I’m letting you go

I know you don’t care

I moving on with my life

I’m sad you won’t be there

I think about you all the time

I wish I could see you

She will cry one day when no one is looking

She keeps it all inside

She puts on a façade when you are around

She says everything’s fine

She is lonely and afraid

She doesn’t know what to do

I’m looking for true reality

The place where I can look at myself clearly

Not live in fantasy

Not what I wish my was

But what my life is

Closer and closer one more day

we are all taking steps till we go away

We don’t know the day we die

We keep going even when we don’t want to try

Our lives are so delicate even though we think we not

Closer and closer today is all we got

The poem I posted yesterday is a rough draft, don’t know if I am going to finish it if you want me to let me know.

I never thought you would ghost me

It never occurred that it would happen

But one day it did and it took awhile to sink in

Did I do something wrong?

Why?

Wont you at least tell me?

The white snow has fallen and the look of a cold winter is here

People stay inside and look for warmth and isolate in fear

Too scared to admit that the winter is only a season that has to come for some

It will leave but their fear of others will remain